I can feel the digital divide and the separation from society slowly closing. It kind of feels like a door slowly closing as you just stand there watching it. I literally have no clue what the outside world is like, and if I need to go to the store, I’m overwhelmed how everything is now.
It’s been only two years since I’ve been a 24/7 caregiver to grams, and I feel as if I missed out on so much. My friends no longer write to me on Facebook and forget about calling or texting it’s as if they forgot my number way before that.
Everyone is so involved in their own lives and I’m here like “I’m stuck.” I stopped reaching out to them after it felt like a burden when I called to say hi. It’s not like I ever mentioned how things were with my family. I honestly would only text or call to see how they were doing.
It was as if I was pulling teeth so I woke up one day and said: “fuck it.” I haven’t reached out to anyone since.
At the end of the day, yes... I'm living under a rock, but I don't mess with no one, and better yet no one messes with me. It's better that way...considering.
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